carolyn
currently 18
is a freaking blueLOVER
loves lollipop
peachtea,chocolates & long john is her favourite
darlings & abangs are my priority now
Sunday, September 20, 2009
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3:01 AM
20.09.09,sunny
i slept at 4 plus yesterday.i just don't know why i can't go to sleep.and yahh,i woke up at 6.get ready and jumpe "MRS.A" at amk.dammn,she reach early than me.alright,we sit awhile and chat.and soon she suggest that we shall go and eat.so we walked all the way to mac.as soon as we reach there.omg,she say she wanna eat at market.MRS A,anything goes.im fine with whateva u wanna eat alright.so we went to the market.and she buy for me peach ice bend.wahahhas.my favourite.after so long for not meeting,she actually remember whats my favourite drink.im quite shocked about it.cause i thought she have "new friends" she will completety forget me and throw me aside.and forget everything that i like.alright back to the topic,then we went to slack at one of the block.its will quite fun to me.but i just didn't want to say it.cause everytime i wanna open my heart back for her,and forgive how she hurt me in the past,theres always something happened and i get hurt once again.then waited for her parents to go out rayer,before entering the house.cause she said she got something urgent to do.went her house,waited for her to siap.and left the house.she does not pay attention to me in the house.i dun know is it because she is rushing or just because of her "new friends".took bus 22 to tamp.sent her to tamp inter to meet her parents before going home.everything goes very well for us(i hope so),but untill a phone call came.seeing the gerl that she hurt me for,called.she rejected.at first i wanted to pretend that i never see.but i cant.so she ask me,am i ok?i say yahh.but she knows that im not.so i ask her,why cant you just answer the call infront of me and tell her ur with me?she say she dun want to have anything to do with her.sometimes i think,are you putting up a show with her again?just to hurt me once again?i just cant trust you anymore gerl.just when i was about to open my heart,there it goes again,end up getting hurt.i dun wish to suffer anymore because of you and when ur happy with her accompany.
MRS.A,
i dun wish to suffer anymore you know.yes,we were once close.way to close.but just because of ur "new friends",i cant accept the fact the your that type of person.im hurt.seriously hurt.i didn't want to tell you this.cause i know u will feel gulity.but thats not what i want,for you to feel gulity after what you have done.you know what i wanted from the start.so don't ask me again.
i wish to suffer alone myself.
and i wish you to be happy with ur "new friends".
my primary school friend is back in singapore.for holiday.hahas.
he use to disturb me when we were back in primary school.
he msg me in the middle of night telling me he reach down singapore.wahhaas.
currently broke leh,then he want meet up.aiyo.tml meeting him.maybe with some of our other primary school friends.shall comfrim with him later.hope u enjoy ur holiday in singapore,alright(: